29th August 29, 2023 3:20AM
Main bat karna chahta hun tumse. Kya mujhe bhi nhi pata. Main almost tumhe call kar hi chuka tha ki pata nhi kya ego bich me aa gya. Main itna nhi gir sakta. Mera kucch self respect hai. Tumne to kabhi respect nhi kiya mera but mujhe thora apna respect karna parega. Kyunki main itna gira hua insan nhi hun. Tum kush raho jaha raho, yehi wish karta hun. Han abhi bhi kabhi kabhi sochta hun ki kash ye sab baat karke solve ho jata. Phir I remember ki kai baar main hi open nhi tha. Tumne suffocation feel kiya and then you chose the right way, out of it. And I wont ever blame you for that. Mujhe hamesha laga ki tum bahut jaldi move on kar gaye kyunki maine kabhi factor in nhi kiya ki tum bangalore ki us rat se decide kar chuke the ki you don’t want to live with me anymore.
Kash main wo samajh pata, I would have left you all this trouble. Main tumhe chahta hun, bahut chahta hun. Itna ki tumse ek bar milne ke liye apne physical body ka kucch bhi de sakta hun. Par jab tumse milke wo pyaar wapas nhi mil sakta then its not worth it.
I am sorry, and I will be sorry forever. Because I destroyed your life. I just wish ki maine kucch aise moments diye tumhe life me ki tum kabhi wo soch ke maaf kar sako.
Although, mujhe tumhari mafi nhi chahiye bas hatred chahiye. Kyunki tumne maf kar diya to phir main tumhare bina ji nhi paaunga. Jab tak tum mujhe hate karoge bas tab tak ji sakta hun main.
Knowing ki, I couldn’t get you even if I wanted to.
The feeling that even if I begged you, the Anvesha I will get will be not be the same, wont love me the same, is what keeps me alive. Kyunki mujhe kabhi laga ki mujhe wahi purani Anvesha kabhi mil sakti hai to main tut jaaunga.
Main tutna nhi chahta main jina chahta hun. Main honestly apne liye jina chahta hun. Apne family ke liye and tumhare liye bhi ki kabhi ham mile aur tum pyaar se ek baar dekho mujhe to main wo glance tumhe return kar sakun. Main bata sakun ki aaj bhi is dil me tum hi ho. Koi aur tumse accha mila nhi kabhi aur na mil sakta hai.
Tum mera pehla pyaar ho Anvesha aur tum hi aakhiri ho, is dil me to himmat nhi ki tumhe chhor ke kabhi aage badh sake, kabhi bol sake us khuda se ki tumse jyada pyaar bhi kabhi hua.
Main janta hun tum uske sath khus ho, wo tumhe respect karta hai, I just wish ki main tumhe wo feeling kabhi de sakta ki main bhi tumhe bahut respect karta hun
You are literally the strongest girl I have ever met.
Wo tum hi thi ki ye break up ho saka aur sahi se ho saka. Kyunki hu main violent person main kucch kar deta uske sath, but tumhara uske liye pyaar dekh ke bas rona aaya gussa nhi aaya. Main hun jiddi but tumhe hurt karna kabhi mera jid nhi ban sakta.
I wish you a happy life ahead. I know ye taunt jaisa feel hoga, but honestly, marry a doctor who earns 2Cr LPA or even 2Cr per month, or marry Manish or marry some Google Facebook guy that your parents bring for you. I wish you a good and happy life. I’ll regret that I wasn’t the one who could give you that life.
But on the scale of this universe it doesn’t matters, what matters is you have a happy and fulfilled life and die with a smile on your face with no regrets. I know you will regret me, but I don’t want that. I want ki tumne itna bhul jaao mujhe ki tumhe kabhi regret karne jaisa bhi kucch yad na rhe. I was a bad chapter your life and wish that now that you have started a new chapter there shouldn’t be a page called Madharchod Amit.
I wish I could tell you that there wont be chapter called the sweetest girl in this world called Anvehsha in my life but it exists and it will exist for two three years but I wish god gives me courage to someday look at you with no hope but just a friend I had in my past.
I will cherish the Anvesha that I had, which you are not and therefore I cant expect anything from you because you are not that Anvesha. You are just someone who looks like her but you are not that girl.
I am sorry that you had to go through so much just because you look like her. But I promise there is nothing in this world that can ever bring me to ever call you again to ask if my Anvesha, the sweetest girl in this world exists or not.
