7th October, 2023
Had an accident today. It was completely my fault. I was rash driving and then I overtook few vehicles and braked hard. It was sand all around and my bike skid. Another biker fell because of me. We sat together and had few puffs then he left me to KMC. I didn’t felt sad or anything. I was like yes, this is life. It was a severe one. I scraped all of my body, from shoulder to elbow to knee. I was at wrong speed, I was dragged with bike to a good distance. Bike didn’t survive, broken brakes, Handle is fucked.
I don’t even know if such severe damage can be fixed. But let’s see.
Anyways, I a made a scrapbook with our photos, packed left-over condoms & lubes, that diary we wrote in, Anushka’s lighter with a new cigarette pack and asked Ayushi to deliver it to Anvehsa. The same day I saw her being playful with him. I don’t know what to feel. That is why I think I start feeling sad. I need to replace that feeling with something.
Anyways, I need a life. I need my life back. I had so many passions. Where are they? Please give me back at least one so that I can build something out of my life.
I have been wasting a lot of shit, from money to time. I need to get back on track and I don’t know how.
I need to realize that I am mortal and living like this just brings me closer to the shit.
Anyways, Good Night. Hope you are having a good life, maybe 4-5 years later from today. I wish to meet you and not get exhausted before that.
